So today I am going to
The housework is never quite caught up...but wait the kids were acting up and I was constantly having to deal with them...
The laundry is never quite all folded and put away... but wait I had to do some things for the Women's Ministry and lost track of time. At least it's washed right?
My garage is quickly looking like it would qualify for one of the "Hoarders - the garage series" tv shows... but wait I was online looking at some blogs that empower me as a SAHM.
My lawn is looking like the Serengeti and my porch a place the lost things go... but wait I am making chore charts so I would be better organized (that's one of my favorites - I can spend hours working on chore charts while dishes sit in the sink).
I have plenty more... I am sure you have some. I bet they are really good ones too. Kids are a great
Proverbs 31:27 "She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness."
But wait! Lord I am not idle. Oooooh No, not me Lord. I do a lot of stuff. A LOT! I plan get togethers for the women, I research stuff, I ... do... stuff. I do! As a matter of fact Lord... You can ask any of the Women at church or my mom...they'll tell you I do stuff! Just the other week we had a play date and we are launching 2 Bible studies, and there's a couple thing coming up...I do stuff... I am NOT idle...nope no idle bread for me. I'll show you my Cozi calendar Lord... I am the opposite of idle!
Or am I so busy eating it I don't even taste what it is I am eating.
hmmmm... OUCH. That kick in the buttinski hurt a little.
So this all came around as I am driving in my car on my way to a Mom Tea that Katie's class was having in honor of Mother's day. My mind was wandering and it wandered to all my but waits. Then in a way only God has my mind associated my "but waits" with actual "butt weights". I had not realized before that both can drag you down. Each time I used a "but wait" I was adding to my load, weighing myself down because I was not putting what I needed to do before what I would prefer to do. Not wanting to realize that if I truly want to be a Proverbs 31 wife then I need to start handling my business FIRST. Right now in this season of my life my first business is my home and those that live in it. Everything and everyone else is secondary.
I was busy being idle. Chew on that one for awhile! Another Ouch for me. In such a hurry to do I was not focusing on what I need to get done. Here's the truly ironic part. Each time I put off a have to with a prefer to then I am adding a "butt weight". I am putting one more thing on my mind that needs done that I haven't done. One more thing to slow me down whether or not I want to realize I am carrying it along.
Not only that but when I load myself up with "but waits" it makes it harder to hear God's will. My mind is so full of the things that I need to do and haven't that it's hard to take the time to "Be still and know He is God" Psalm 46:10. It's easier to just sing the poor me song and feel bad for all the hard stuff I have to do. God did not call me for a pitiful existence. He called me to be a Mom, a Wife and the Women's Ministry Director. He has called me to be a Speaker and to encourage women. He has called me and because He has called me He will gift me with the things I need to do those things. Nothing is impossible for God - no matter how daunting it is for me Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26. I have to do my part though. He has also given me the Free Will to sit on the couch or stand up and do His work. I have to make a conscious decision that when I feel the couch calling me I will ignore it's call and listen harder for His. "They refused to listen and failed to remember the miracles you performed among them. They became stiff-necked and in their rebellion appointed a leader (the Internet) in order to return to their slavery(the couch). But you are a forgiving God, gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love. Therefore you did not desert them," Nehemiah 9:17 Remembering that I am not just doing the dishes to avoid flies or so that we'll have something to eat on but I am doing it to glorify God "So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God" 1 Corinthians 10:31. I am keeping my house, taking care of my kids, loving my husband all for the Glory of God. Everything that comes from it is a blessing from God. As I turn my focus from what I want and to what God wants things just get easier. It's as if my heart, mind and soul all line up and are at peace.
So...What choice will you make with your Free Will? What are some of the things that you know God is calling you to but you feel unprepared or like Moses and God's made the wrong choice? Remember God knows everything, He is yesterday, today and Tomorrow. He knows what we are capable of because He knit us together in our mother's womb and knows our inmost being (Psalm 139:13). We are not a surprise to Him. He has called us and He will make us capable. Just like Moses (Exodus 3) God will equip us whether we feel capable or not.
Today I am going to start tossing off the