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Tuesday, January 27, 2015

The New Year choosing a New Me

Alrighty, here it is January 27th and I have decided I am not going to make a resolution this year.  I am going to make some new choices.  A resolution is forgotten as soon as it's made (for me at least) so I figure by making some choices and taking the steps needed to remember to make them (thank you Iphone and your many free "remind me" apps) this time next year I'll still be me but me 2.0 .

So what are the choices I am making and why?  Here you go:

 I have joined a Crossfit Gym (Box to those of you familiar with the lingo) and in just the first 2 weeks I have passed every limit I thought I had.  Over at Average Joe's Crossfit they are encouraging, supportive and they will push you past your predetermined limits to your actual limit.  Many a times I've been mentally waiting for my coach to pat me on the back and say,"ok you've tried hard enough you can quit now," and that has yet to happen. Instead my coach will start doing the exercise with me or start setting limits like, "Ok,  Only 100 meters left to row - no more stopping."  I am CHOOSING to work out at least 5 times a week and on my off days I will shuffle (somewhere between a walk and a jog and about as good as I can do right now) or go into the box and work on some techniques to improve my form and continue to get stronger. 
I am CHOOSING to eat healthier.   That's probably the hardest for me.  I am an emotional eater, a reward yourself eater, a you survived your day eater, and let's not forget every other reason I can think of to get a Dove Bar in my mouth eater.

So I had to make a choice to INTENTIONALLY eat healthier.  Some days are easier then others and a couple bouts of a miserable stomach have taught me that I can not feed my body healthy food and then a little of the super crappy food without consequences.  So MOST of my days are filled with healthy choices.  I can tell you that having a trainer or a box that you hold yourself accountable to helps too.  My coaches talk to me about healthy food choices and I know that if I eat that snickers bar my last 20 air squats were for nothing... THAT motivates me more then anything to eat healthy.  I'm not going to enjoy killing myself at crossfit and then turn around and blow it all away with junk food.  Now... does that mean these lips will never touch pizza again... no, not at all.  I have found the strength to limit myself and even on a few occasions say no thank you.  Also I'm only going to let myself have Dove Bars at my BFF's house when we go down to visit once or twice a year.

Ok, So my 3rd and probably hardest choice for the new year... Having very little crap food in the house and insisting that this lifestyle change is not for me alone but also for my husband (who's totally on board) and my daughters (My 8 year old is planning a revolution).  This means portion control (an especially hard thing for me and my oldest - we like to eat a lot of food when it's yummy), making the food we are eating as a family healthier (celery and fat free ranch for snack - or no snack - simple choice) and did I mention portion control?  As a whole we don't eat awful but we eat a lot of healthy and even that out of control can be unhealthy...  EVERYTHING is moderation.  Do they still get candy?  Yes but never more then 2 pieces a day.  Pizza is a once a week thing but we buy a little extra so there's leftovers for breakfast and lunch the next day.  This lifestyle change is not about denial but more about more healthier choices and MODERATION.
It took me a long time to learn but in only 10 classes and about 2 weeks of healthy eating look at the difference that's already so visible.  I feel like I've been a big ball of playdough, rolling here and there and getting by.  Now that I've made some changes in my LIFESTYLE I've been put into one of those playdough molds (for a size 12, confident, young-ish woman) and it's slloooowwwwly being pressed closed. All the extra unneeded playdough is slowly being pulled away to show who God originally intended to house my soul.  I'm more confident, getting better sleep, more active with my kids.

What choices will you make for the New Year? And why?


Sunday, May 12, 2013

Is Angry ok?


It's something we all feel at some point.  The pure anger we feel when someone we love is wronged or threatened.  Sometimes anger is justified and needed.  It fuels us forward to do what is right.

Sometimes it's not.  That's the dangerous kind of anger.  The one that gives the devil the foothold we are warned about in Ephesians 4:26-27 "Go ahead and be angry. You do well to be angry—but don’t use your anger as fuel for revenge. And don’t stay angry. Don’t go to bed angry. Don’t give the Devil that kind of foothold in your life."(Message).  

I'm guilty of it.  The anger about why things aren't going the way they're supposed to.  The frustration when it seems God is not following "our" plan.  These are some of the questions I find myself asking myself - since I have the most sympathy for me:

"Why did this happen to me?"
"Why can't I do that?"
"Why am I being punished, overlooked, hurt?"
"Why don't I matter in the scheme of things?"

Sadly I confess it's been a really hard struggle for me lately.  There are things going on in my life right now that are so far outside what I would've ever considered "my path" that I feel some days like I am choking on the anger they can stir.  I just had one of those days recently and for the first time in awhile once my house was quiet I went to Bible Gateway to see what the Bible says about anger.  Instead of wallowing and ignoring I choose to go to the handbook God's left me here on Earth to get through these things.

You see I thought anger was by itself bad.  It's one of those words you whisper but not to anyone that might think poorly of you.  Heaven forbid anyone realize I have real things going on and have real emotions about them.  Oh what a scandal to find out that I am a God-Fearing, Loved-by-God in spite of it, human being.  Thankfully some of the first verses God showed me were about being angry but not letting it control you or make decisions for you.  That sometimes in anger you need to just stop and meditate on the Lord, and be still. (Psalm 4:4 NKJV)

I am ashamed of my anger.  It's like a poison.  I have ignored it so long that now I can get angry at being angry.  There are layers to peel away and I am working on them one by one.  What I am now doing different is asking God to show me the things I am ignoring. That's such a scary request but nonetheless necessary.  There are things I know I've intentionally blocked and I've gotten so good at ignoring/blocking them for so long that now that as the ice is cracking, and things are bubbling up, my mind is terrified of what's beneath because in all sincerity I don't remember it all.  I just remember that I don't want to remember, to own up, to admit those things that were to painful for me to sort out at the time.  It was easier for me to turn on my "Happy Christian" smile and do some standard Christian phrases:

"It's in God's Hands"
"God's will be done"
"I know God has a plan and a purpose for me"

All of them true but not heartfelt at the time.  Rather than  face up and say, " I am mad. I am angry.  I don't know how to handle it.  I don't know how to be mad about this.  This is not fair and I am mad and I am stuck in this angry place and I have no idea why God has allowed this to happen to me.  I was being such a good Christian."

I am realizing that right now to some extent the anger is protecting me.  I can't keep it there forever.  It's a cancer that I need to be taking steps to remove.  I am.  If I were to remove it all at once though, if I even had that ability, it would be like ripping off the bandages of a life-threatening wound.  It would leave me too raw and defenseless.  To some extent by peeling off 1 layer at a time I am allowing myself to prepare for what's coming next.  Allowing myself a moment to realize that peeling off the last layer may have stung a bit but it didn't kill me.

So..."Is Angry ok?"

I think so.  Sometimes it's necessary... a protective shield to help us sort out the things we can't all at once.  I can honestly say I know God is with me.  Psalm 118:6 tells me, "The Lord is on my side; I will not fear.  What can man do to me?" NKJV God is in my corner.  He knew this was coming and has put things in place to help me through.  I will not lash out in anger, I will not allow this to control my life and I will not allow myself to hide because of it.  I will face it, come out stronger, more self assured and closer to the Lord.

So I ask you this question: How do you handle your anger?

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Stop Nagging - Encourage your kids independence AND Clean your house...

I believe they call it a win win win situation

If you have kids and you want them to do chores without having to sit on them and constantly nag this Chore System for the Kids over at "Home Made by Carmona" is the place to go.

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She has a lot of neat prinables and
good  DIY and organization tips.
Before this I was at my wits end with Katie.  Actually had hubby talk to her a couple times because it was taking her 3 hours to do a 15 minute job.  I needed something that would allow her to be independant, would allow me to step back and retire my "Nag of the Year" title and would leave both of us happy and feeling like something was accomplished.

That's when (thanks to Pinterest) I stumbled across Carmona's chore list.  It's GREAT!  This is a wonderful system that you can customize to fit your children's ages, needs etc.  I made one for Katie's Morning routine (before tv can be turned on) one for her evening routine (before tv or ds can be played) and one for her daily chores.  She's really doing well on it and even managed to clean their bathroom rather well (she's "letting" me do the toilet and the tub).  Company could come over, close their eyes, be guided through the house to the guest bath and open their eyes IN THE GUEST BATH.  The rest of the house is not quite so company ready.  Her room is also so much more neat and clean.  She's 7 in 2 weeks folks and kicking housecleaning butt.  I believe this system helps keep her focused and on task while allowing me to step back.  She understands that she can not do electronics/play before her work is done.  What is truly awesome is that this morning as she did her chores and I did mine we were a team.  It was a good feeling.  I could also tell she was very proud that she had accomplished her list and that she had done so without my having to scold, rub my temples while counting to ten or threaten to throw every electronic away.  It has really made the entire process much more peaceful in our house.

So did you use it or do you have a similar system?  How is it working for you? or do you need something like this in your home to help things go smoother?

God Bless!